Once Anonymous

i hv a confession to make.

THIS IS NOT MY FIRST BLOG

yes, you read them right. the truth is that i've been blogging since 2003; back when blogger.com used to have the big banner on top. but back then, i blog anonymously (i think that's what them bloggers call it). and back then, the title of my blog was Let's Talk About Me. why did i chose to be anonymous? when i was younger, i've always kept a diary and they were personal, you wouldnt want anybody to read your personal diary would you? and there, i wrote down all the things that has happened to me, be it happy, sad, frustrating, embarrasing, etc.

so, when i started my blog back in august 2003, i wanted to keep it a secret. well, of course the whole world can read them but being anonymous, they'll never get to know who wrote them. and i've avoided writing down names of the people i wrote about in case they're so smart and they googled their names and found my online diary (that's the popular term back then). but then, i felt that it is extremely hard to blog as anonymous; hv to be extra careful on what to/not to write and eventually, i stopped writing about me - merely posting stuff from my mailbox - until finally, i stopped posting anything at all!

i think, in early 2004, blogging has become the new internet phenomenon. people became more open in voicing out their opinions; talked about themselves, about their thoughts without worrying what other people might think and they dont even care if people know them/recognize them. well, nowadays, it even helped a lot to have a blog. if you hv a problem or in a dilemma, people who read your blog can comment on it and some of them may even solve your problem or simply provide the comfort that you needed most. blogging reliefs you from your burden, when you're down and you need someone to talk to, you can always blog and know for sure that somebody will read them and will know just how you feel - rather than keeping all your thoughts/problems/sorrow bottled up inside, that's just not healthy! why did i start blogging again? simply because of all the reasons i've mentioned before. i just needed a place to dump in all my thoughts and feelings - and also so that i hv something to do to fill my free time hehehhh. special thanks to a friend - a fellow blogger who has encourage me in doing this. visit his blog, he has a lot of thought provoking and inspiring posts in there.

so, yesterday, i found my old notebook (notebook as in a small book and not as in laptop,ok? *grin*) which i've written the username of my old blog and when i logged in, to my surprise, all my posts are still there! i've forgotten all about them. well of course i didnt forget that i once was a blogger but i thought i've deleted the blog. dear me, all this while, my other blog was still alive and still out there...

read through them and i was kind of like mesmerized by all the things that i've once said and done and all the things that was once resided in my mind. i wanted to delete them but... ala... sayang laaa...

then, i finally decided that i still want them - ok, not all actually. i'll take some of my old post and transfer them here, perhaps i need to edit some of them and perhaps, i'll just delete those that are not that proper to put in here.

well, you can expect to see my older posts in a few days time. bubbye for now, hv to do the transferring as soon as possible.

cheers!